Monthly Archives: March 2007

A lot of chaos in my head this morning. I asked my Tarot de Marseille what I should do:

Card 1 – me : the star (XVII). Speaks about generosity and abundance, also about hope and faith. There certainly is a will in me to give, to spread, to feel useful.

Card 2 – the world : the high priestess (II). Very passive and introspective card. That’s a way to picture Occident. Every man in his cubicle, his car, his house, minding his own business. Millions of silences.

Card 3 – the question: the hermit (IX). Am I condemned to walk into the desert, with the pain of inner wealth I must keep inside ?

Card 4 – the answer: the fool (0). Ha ! Don’t care, carpe diem ! The fool is pretty much in the same situation as the hermit. They just have different perspective. I related a lot with this card when I was a young romantic poet. Maybe I should do so again.

The card 5 – the summary, obtained by the addition of the four cards (XVII + II + IX + 0) : the wheel of fortune (X) – again ! Yeah. I’ll be asking the same questions in 10, 20 and 50 years from now. I’m stuck with what I am.

And I shouldn’t care much.

Don’t know if I wanna bloom

Don’t know if I wanna fight

Don’t know if I wanna write

Don’t know if I wanna live

here

or elsewhere

Don’t know what I wanna do

Don’t know if I wanna love

Don’t know don’t know

I look at the time

and I don’t know I don’t know.

Can a flower with tainted roots bloom ?

This is why I couldn’t stand being a teacher.

In this life, do we have to choose between fear and boredom ?

Because I still can’t.

Guys Skis Down Tube Escalator

LONDON (Reuters) – A man who filmed himself skiing down the longest escalator on London’s underground rail network was branded “dangerous, stupid and irresponsible” Wednesday.

The man hurtled down nearly 200 feet at Angel tube station with a camera strapped to his head and posted the video on the YouTube Web site.

  1. Cool
  2. Ah come on, that’s not that stupid. Life is short and we should enjoy it.
  3. That’s one original way to use public transport facilities.

BLOOMINGTON, Ind. – A scofflaw who came to be known as the gin and tonic bandit went to the same restaurant each Wednesday, ordered two drinks and a rib-eye steak, then skipped out on his $25.96 bill.

His dining, drinking and dashing days may be over.

Police arrested the man on preliminary charges of theft and resisting law enforcement. He was being held early Friday at the Monroe County Jail on $2,000 bond, authorities said.

Each Wednesday night for four weeks running, the same man came into the same O’Charley’s restaurant and ordered the two drinks and the steak, restaurant manager Teresa Tolbert told police.

At the end of each meal, the wait staff would present him with his bill for $25.96, and he would excuse himself to use the restroom, then skip out without paying.

The man appeared a fifth time Wednesday night, but the restaurant was ready for him, police said.

Ok. So, it means I can eat for free in a restaurant FOUR TIMES without trouble ? Who are these morons who served him the second, third and fourth time he got there without asking first for what he stole or calling the police ?????


Your Body Image is 20% Unhealthy, 80% Healthy


You have a great body image. You know that no one looks perfect, and you’re happy the way you are.

Also, you don’t judge other people on their looks… and it helps them feel better about their own bodies!

How’s Your Body Image?

Some tears in my blood

My heart should never compare

With what my eyes know.

 

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Strange how I can get

Inspiration from mean ones

It works like manure.

 

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Dark suns dark suns dark

So dark and cold all around

Is it how it works.

 

Scientists believe it takes 21 days to form a new habit and complaining is habitual for most of us. As Twain said, we must coax our old behavior down the stairs. The bracelet(s) you receive are a powerful tool(s) to remind you of how well you are creating your life with positive intention. Here are the suggested rules:

1. Begin to wear the bracelet, on either wrist

2. When you catch yourself complaining, gossiping or criticizing (it’s ok, everyone does) move the bracelet to the other arm and begin again.

3. If you hear someone else who is wearing a bracelet complain, you may point out their need to switch the bracelet to the other arm; BUT if you’re going to do this, you must move your bracelet first!

4. Stay with it. It may take many months but when you reach 21 days you will find that your entire life is happier, more loving, more positive and more abundant.

(via peaceachday)

Hum. My second reaction was to wonder if inner complaint counts, right after thinking about a co-worker who would get two tendonitis with that bracelet.

That’s a tough one.

But while thinking about it I wondered: does complaining about poverty, violence or war is a good thing ? Does criticizing my country for not doing enough about them is a good thing ? I think so.

Gossipers however should go straight to hell.

In the other hand, complaining about an issue doesn’t mean anything if I don’t do anything about it.

I assume we can say there is complaining in a positive spirit and complaining in a negative spirit. And that the target here is the second, not the first one. To stop living your life like a tragedy, like a victim. Yeah, amen to that.

But… Does inner negativity counts ? If someone treats me like garbage and yell in my head, I guess it counts. What if I don’t even just put it in words, if it’s just a feeling ?

Strange how it’s looks to me like Buddhism. Permanent compassion to free self from the suffering of the ego.

Is every hate unfair ? Every anger unfair ?

My first answer would be no. I’ll keep thinking about this.

Maybe I’m just pushing the thing too far (as usual). Maybe it’s just about not making big things of small things. And not about not making small things of big things.

Hum. I think I get it.

I ordered one bracelet. And I every time I’ll dramatize I’ll put a quarter in a complaint jar for charity. Hoping it will help some real tragedy.

Sometimes I dream of a life less violent. Today it was becoming a full time poet and mendicant. What, I wouldn’t face the violent judgment of the working man yelling to get a job ?

A month ago it was to emigrate in Maghreb and open a coffee shop. Another kamikaze exploding himself in Casablanca killed that dream.

Am I a fool to dream of a life less violent ? Is there too much fear and ignorance, judgment and negativity, models and games to carry that dream ?

She spreads her tallness

As I can feel her pear-shaped

Breasts sing like the moon.

 

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I stand way too close

To those terrible monsters

Who are feeding me.

I must go faster

My heart is ahead of me

Feeling like a sun.

 

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A look at people

Searching for someone untied

Not birds in cages.

 

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There are no such things

as under, below, inside

Everything is here.

 

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I carry my roots

walk in the office and streets

Can I lay them down.

 

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Obituaries

Noise of shadows falling down

My fingers are stained.

 

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Walking all alone

Would I ever settle for

Love’s minimum wage.

 

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Her beauty drizzles

She spreads it from her own breeze

On my open hand.

 

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I refrain my tears

Is this what they meant to do

I don’t want to know.

The Arcade Fire have cancelled 9 dates on their current European Tour. Win Butler has been fighting a sinus infection since the beginning of this year and has simply been unable to get back to full health. With the constant demands on his voice from touring it has reached the stage today where he simply cannot sing.

Leave Win Butler alone, you evil sinus invader !

And get well, Win !!

We abstainers won the Quebec election.

  1. Abstainers 1 617 327
  2. PLQ 1 313 780
  3. ADQ 1 223 477
  4. PQ 1 125 078
  5. PVQ 154 367
  6. QS 145 051

I don’t know if I should add the 41 252 rejected ballots to the abstainers. As we don’t know how many of these voters really tried to vote.

As the abstainers won, elected politicians should abstain from lying and stealing. At least for a few days. Please.